Tuesday, December 1, 2009

I'M ALIVE.. SOMEWHAT..

Dear Carol,
Your Thanksgiving sounds like it could've done without the "drama queen."  Holy hell, what is her issue?  She's a good person at her core and I will forever believe that but these choices she is making and this attitude.. She really needs to get it in check.  She needs to see a therapist and work thru some of these things.  She had/has an excellent Mother and Grand-Mother, both amazing role models for independent women, not to mention her little sister getting out there and rolling her sleeves up getting in the game.  E.D. has done nothing from which she cannot bounce back, WE did it!  And were it not for those precious babies I would say "tough love" would be the route to take but you really can't do that when there's lit'l ones that need your love and tending to.  What a tuff spot for you to be in not only as a Mother but as Grandma..  I know Y.D. is watching and learning from all of this..

Kudos on your raise and bonus AND having the boss man actually come in and commend you on a job well done, you're right, that rarely happens.  I am so, so happy for you Carol... This has been a long time coming for you and no one deserves it more than YOU!

I'm very sorry that you're still sick.  Have you been to the doc?  Sounds like you have fluid in your lungs and that sounds like pneumonia!  You really, really need to be seen.  Please do so... I worry about you all the time!

Life here has been all about me getting used to these meds.  I swear to God I fall asleep at the drop of a hat, not good sleep mind you but sleep of sorts which is more than I was getting before so I am happy.  Now if I could sleep at normal times that would be great.  My lit'l sis is constantly harping on me about taking naps in the middle of the afternoon but I honestly don't have a choice.  My eyes just get heavy and I nod off.  I'm taking everything the way I'm supposed to except on the days when I have to pick Seth up and/or drop him off, then I can't have any of these meds in my system, impossible to drive! 

I took #1 son to do some paperwork for his new job.  He has absolutely got to hang onto this job Carol.  Check out the benefits he gets...

IMMEDIATE UPON HIRE -
  • 40% discount on food/beverage
  • 20% discount off merchandise at Boyne Country Sports
  • Discounted golf privileges
  • Discounted ski privileges
  • Discounted water park privileges
  • Tennis privileges
  • Bike rentals
  • Ski rental
  • Discounted ski lessons
  • Direct deposit
  • 7 paid holidays at time and a half if worked
  • Bereavement pay
  • Marriage leave pay
  • Referral bonuses
  • Service recognition awards
  • Company sponsored events
AT 90 DAYS -
  • Medical, dental, vision, life, AFLAC and flex coverage at 90 days.
  • Room discounts for self and family at 90 days
ONE YEAR -
  • 401K after a yr.
  • 30% discount on merchandise at Boyne Country Sports after a yr.
  • Tuition reimbursement (full or part time students) after a yr.
  • Paid vacation after a yr.
I think this is just awesome and what a great opportunity for him.  He can put "lit'l one" on his insurance so "the bitch" will stop bitching and come time for "lit'l one" to go to school, son #1 will have it totally together and "lit'l one" will go here instead of that bomb dump "the moron" lives in!

I've been feeling like a zombie and trying to function as such is near impossible.  I have no energy what-so-ever and yet I have decorating to get done.  I had son #3 bring some boxes up for me earlier... Thought I might just stay up and get done what I am able before I slip into my coma again.  My lit'l sis will dispute the fact that I'm up late at night and rather than being up I should just lie in bed until I fall asleep again.  I keep trying to tell her that it doesn't work that way but she refuses to listen.. She knows everything.. It's not my fault my body is off kilter right now.  I too would love nothing more than to go to bed at 10pm and wake up at 6am.  In fact that is my goal but right now it's not possible and it sucks and I don't need to hear about my irratical sleep patterns every single day from some one who hasn't the slightest clue about what it's like to live in excruciating pain day in, day out and to not be able to go to sleep like a normal person.  Does she seriously think I arrange my schedule to be like this???  I like not sleeping, I like being in pain???  I just hate it when people don't get it..

Anyway, I need to go.. I feel a coma coming on.  Please let me know when you're heading to the doc.
Luv U
BFF

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