Merry Christmas and good trimmings

Good tidings to all, this is a different Christmas for me. It’s the first time that I am not celebrating the day opening presents, and it’s not because of me. Usually I worked, trying to squirm my way out of the day, but today Tata is working, so I can use her as an excuse. Really, not an excuse, but I am still tired all the time and just don’t want to go to the city after 5 when it starts getting dark.


We gathered all the presents and put them by the door and stood back looking at just how many there were. WOW! I think we outdid last year and there was a load then. I have decided next year, maybe just envelopes…lol.

I think it would be great to have a scavenger hunt to find the presents, especially for the little ones. I didn’t like last year when the middle grand child would grab one of his presents, rip open the paper, toss it to the side, and ask where his next one was. I was not even the present that got him excited, it was seeing how many he was going to get. It disturbed me, cuz he just tossed them, not caring if they broke, he didn’t care who had given them to him, I was perturbed. If it happens this year, he may not get any next year.

My eldest child upset me a little this week. The children’s toy box is over flowing very much so. She put the kids’ name on the giving trees around town. When one of them only brought one gift, she called them and told them that wasn’t fair, so they are going out of their way to get more for the kids. I told her that she didn’t have to do that, as the kids were getting plenty of stuff from the family, that those presents should be used for kids that really needed it.

Well, I guess I am going to sign off, just wanted to say Merry Christmas, may the spirit of Christ help you through your trying times. This is my time to pray and ask for you. God bless.

Your BBB

Survivor - Samoa - Russell

Russell did not win the game and I am pissed! This man was hated by me so much, I called him every name in the book. He played the best game I have every watched, and I have watched every episode from day one of Survivor, except one. He is the craziest player, the best player bar none. Noboby outplayed this man, noone out thought this man, noone out witted this man. What a crock that he did not win!

Russell is the best player I have every seen!

Happiness is truly a state of mind.

I am jamming out today, listening to Lady Gaga, Muse, Carrie Underwood, among some. Lady Gaga’s Bad Romance takes me back to the disco days and I have to say I really enjoyed the shit out of those days. Carrie Underwood’s Cowboy Casanova makes me want to get better and go dancing and you know I hate country music. But this makes me move my head and pout my lips, giving me attitude. Now Muse’s Uprising makes me want to jump up and down on the bed and just gets me feeling young. Not that I have the ability to jump up and down on the bed, but it’s a great thought in my head. Yesterday I sat around, at night, and cried listening to Bob Seger. God he brought back great times in my life. I so miss those days. I was fun back then, I loved, I lived, I felt alive.

Not anymore, my knees are pretty swollen; thus no jumping. Hell, I can barely walk. Yesterday I spilled some nut shells on the floor and about died trying to pick them up. I had to use my cane to lean on and then I felt like the big bad wolf in 3 little pigs. I was a huffing and puffing, but instead of blowing anything (damn!), I about passed out.

The coughing is as bad, I cough so hard I see black. If not pure black, then I see black stars and I get real woozy for a few seconds. Blah! My ribs sometimes feel like I am breaking them when I cough, it hurts so bad. But enough of my wa-wa. I am still napping whenever I can, today I got up the first time at 10:45 and was back to sleep at around 1 until 5:30. I couldn’t even get enough energy to go to the big city today. Thank god all my Christmas shopping is done, I wouldn’t be able to do anymore. I am not going back to the doctor until next year, and no thanks on the valium, I am trying to stay awake, not crash for 24 hours.

I hate thinking that I am never going to get better, all the way around, including the knees. I hate thinking I may never get out of my bedroom, other than going to work. I hate thinking my life is basically going to be what it is now, until I die. There is no real happiness, I laugh, I smile, but I don’t feel, you understand? I think in some ways my heart feels broken or empty.

Let me tell you, money does not buy happiness. I have money now, I am not happy. I am not talking about millions, but I am very comfortable, compared to how I have lived the last 30 years. I want for nothing, I lack for nothing. I had more fun when I was pooooooooor trying to figure out how my finances were going to be paid. Weird! Happiness really is a state of mind and my mind can't seem to grasp that. I am happy at work, cuz other people are bummed, so I am trying to bring them up, but when I get home, again, I feel nothing.

I am stopping now, can't go on.

Love you

Your BBB

OH AND ONE MORE THING

Totally excited about your normal poop!  I really am.  Again, I will address this topic possibly tomorrow.  I'm so happy for you.  I know how great that feels. - Anyone reading this is gonna' think we're nut jobs.. Whatever, don't fucking read it.. -

Love you again.

Your BFF

VALIUM

Dear Carol,
The doc gave me valium to replace the xanax.  Valium is one crazy ass med, this I will tell you!  I'll write more on this topic when I don't feel like I'm trapped in the 60's...

In the meantime.  How are you?  Any relief?  Might I suggest valium? 

I have to go now.

I love you bunches.

Your BFF

gotta say what I gotta say

So I have some exciting news, I took a dump and for the first time in forever I had a regular bowel movement! I was so jacked; I had to tell Tata about it. I know that may not be exciting to some, but when your body evacuates itself faster than you can retain food, this is almost a miracle.


I am so finished with Christmas presents; this is the first time ever I am ahead of the game. I think because of this, my body knows it is not under stress. At least not in the bowel way. I am still so stinking tired, I nap all the time when I have days off, I want to when I am at work, but can’t. I have given up going to the doctors this year, the cough will not go away so the next step is the ears, nose, and throat doc. I am so not looking forward to that. My sister was going through something like what I am doing and they made her stick a string attached to some sort of device, in her nose, down her throat. She also had the other end in another device behind her ear. She was to wear this for a 24 hour period to see what her stomach was doing. She was in a store when she got sick and threw up the device. So now she has this string thing running through her nose coming out her mouth. She had to pull it through her mouth and out her nose. Fuck that! I would have cut the damned thing. This is why I don’t want to go to the doc. I don’t want them shoving something down my throat to figure out why I am coughing

So work is going pretty good, I am trying to be in a better mood. Poor Tata having to work with the pathological liar is driving her to being sick. Now she understands why I had to get out of there, cuz I couldn’t do it anymore.

I have not been out anywhere, I have not done anything, my knees are pretty painful lately, so I am not engaging in any fun. So this will be short, maybe not sweet.

Keep on bitching! I love you for that.

Your BBB

WHERE HAVE I BEEN?? WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?? SICK?? ME TOO!!!

Dear Carol,
God I am so sick of being sick and tired - ALL THE FUCKING TIME!!!!

Right now I'm at home alone.  I can hardly believe it, not a sound to be heard but me on the keyboard. - Nice.

I'm still trying to get decorated.  At this rate I'll be decorating straight thru to Christmas Eve!  I'm just SO tired!  Never thought I'd say this, but I can't wait to see my doc on Wed. so he can prescribe me something else!  This Xanax is THE WORST!  I'm a raving bitch and I know I'm a raving bitch and I apologize but I can't stop it!  It's so stupid!!!

My brother was up for the weekend and got a deer.  He gave it to me.  It's ready to be picked up but that'll have to wait until tomorrow.  I don't even know how to get to the town where he and my bro in law dropped it off to be processed.  In any event, it was fun having my brother up, what time I got to spend with him.  My sister pretty much hogged him all to herself but whatever.. In actuality my brother was in his blind most of the time he was here, the blind just happened to be on their property..  My brother brought Christmas gifts for everyone, which was very nice of him.  He got me a snowman for my tree, an ornament that looks JUST LIKE my dog, for my tree and a card with money in it for me and the boys.  It was very nice and thoughtful and he didn't have to do that.

#3 son was in a talent show over the weekend.  I didn't go because I was exhausted. - Give me the Mother of the Year Award.. I'm such a bitch. - He didn't place but he had fun and got exposure and some other guys asked him to be in their band up here so he was happy.

#1 son loves his job.. Wish he'd get his license.. Sure would make life a helluva' lot easier on me.. "Lit'l one" had to be taken to the pick up/drop off and then #1 son had to go to work, then we - I took sons 2 and 3 with me - headed to my Mom's, then to my sisters, opened my brothers gifts, ate some chili, chatted for a bit and then back on the road at 9pm to pick up #1 son from work and with the roads the way they are it's a little over an hour drive.. So figure on Sunday I drove 1.5 hr. to drop "lit'l one", drove back 1.5 hr., total of 3 just for that little jaunt, then out to son's work, just over an hour, then back from son's work, so about 2.5 hours there, my Mom n' sis are on the way so no biggie and then the last trip out to pick him up, just over an hour and then back, just over an hour, so 2.5 hrs. again... Let's see.. 8 hrs. in the car yesterday.....  "Mom, why are you in such a bad mood?"  Asks #3 son.... Hhhmmm, between the shitty meds and living in my vehicle, my body being in excruciating pain and the pounding in my head... I really don't know why I'm in such a bad mood...

Anyway, so that's what's been going on here... How 'bout you?  Feeling any better?  My brother gave my Mom two vicodin which she splits in half so she's not been in as much pain.. I was glad for that.  Still pissed that my sister wouldn't fill that script she had and give some to my Mom, my Mom was never selfish with hers when she had extra..

Okay, I'm gonna' take full advantage of my quiet house and go rest..  Oh, and I saw pics of my Boise boy toy's new woman... She's pretty and I hate her and I hate him but I want him to be happy just not with her and that's pretty much the way I feel about that.
Signed your bitchy...
BFF

GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE!

Dear Carol                                     Wednesday, December 9, 2009          9am
Well, just getting ready to start a fire and then get busy with decorating.  I've been up since about 6:30am.  #2 son was also up but he hadn't been to bed so when I got up he stumbled upstairs... We got into a small little tiff yesterday and apparently he decided he'd stay up cleaning all night... Hhhhmm, perhaps we should have these little tiffs more often.

Can't seem to get used to these new meds.  I'm tired all the time... I have a dr. appt. next Wednesday so hopefully he can help  me out.. AND I'm going to have him look at my very first ever ingrown toe nail which I find to be so disgusting.. It's not not red and bloated but it's pink and it hurts like a bitch!

I'm sure you've seen our weather conditions out here.  Total blizzard but we don't have those cold temps that you guys have... You're down right frigid!  If our temps were any cooler we wouldn't be having all of this snow.. People don't get that but it's true, it can be too cold to snow.  We're supposed to get 11" - 17" of snow today ON TOP of what we've already gotten and here that's over a foot!

Oh, I saw the PPV UFC advertisement.. UFC 107?  Is that the one?  And I saw the hot guys.. Wow.. They really are amazing aren't they???

Well, I just heard "lit'l" one.. Better get off of here so I can get him breakfast.. #1 son starts his job today!  He's so totally jacked and so am I!!!!

I'll wrie more sooner than later.
Luv U
BFF

aging and not well

dig the hat?! maybe, maybe not...looks ike you should have your auger in hand heading for the iced over lake, ready to do some fishing...OMG

got all the presents wrapped today, some dishes and some laundry. it's been in the 20's all day, just a nice day to stay inside. no lights up this year, apparently, not going to either.

tomorrow back to work...blah

here is an odd thought...do you know who bruce greenwood the actor is?

this man just gets better looking with age. i never thought of him as "bangable", but i definitely do now, and you know my theory on older men.

do you know House is the same age as me?

remember michael schoeffling? sixteen candles? i had the hots for him so bad back then, thinking why couldn't they make boys look like that when i was in school and today found out he is just a year younger than me.....OH GOD I AM GETTING SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OLD.

oh well, enough of my nonsense....time to relax and blend in with the bed. tata is sitting in my room bundled up like she is in your country. it's like 40-50 degrees in my room, i think that is plenty warm. i am sitting in shorts and a tank top....

okay love you!
BBB

Pics

the one on the left is John (my "newphew" and Josh Burkman, a UFC fighter
the one above is John and Jens "lil evil" Pulver


John wrote and told me that Randy Couture, Matt Hughes, and Jeremy Horne will be coming in the next few months.
then tonight they announced on the UFC finales that Chuck Liddell and Tito Ortiz are going to be coaching the next series. I was so stoked. I love CHUCK! he was on dancing with the stars, but I don't watch that. But I am excited over anything UFC.

Tony" The Freak" Fryklund and John

here is a pic of CHUCK!!!!

gonna go to sleep. Love you BBB

PENIS FORESKIN???

HYSTERICAL!!!!!

Just taking a break from phone calls and decorating..  My Mom called and filled me in on how my sister is forever critisizing everything I do and I know she does because she tries to do the same to me but in a much less bitchy way so I know how she is.  Today her bitch is that I spend my money on junk for the kids and too much stuff for "lit'l one" and that I'm letting my car fall apart, none of which is true.  Unlike her I chose to take my money and actually pay my bills and even after spending nearly all of my cash I'm still a month behind.  She said, "I thought you zeroed out your bills."  I said, "In as much as I could, getting them paid to where I'm only a month behind is zeroing them out to me."  When I get sick of her bullshit I call her Suze Orman.  And ya' know, if she had her finances in order I might listen but she doesn't.  She has two homes and that property because of the sweat of my parents, who, she owes over $125k to, just FYI.  And as far as my car is concerned.  Months ago my sister's husband told me that I needed to get my tires rotated before the snow falls.  I'm like, "I will."  Well I didn't and my sister mentioned it to me again and told me that her husband is really upset because I travel with "lit'l one" in my vehicle and he likes that little guy.  First of all, I don't jump when her husband tells me I should do something and I NEVER will!  Second, my vehicle is fine.  I have an appt. for Monday to get the tires rotated and to have that computer analysis done on it because the "check engine" light came on yesterday.  The mechanic said not to worry, it's probably just the gas cap, which apparently is some kind of issue in newer cars.  He said if it starts flashing then I'll have problems.  I got my oil changed today and my vehicle, again, is fine.  My sister's husband is pissed because when I got a $2000 check I didn't immediately get my tires rotated.  Well call me fucking stupid but I'm thinking rent, utilities, food, clothing, gas, insurance are all a little more important than rotating tires and when you immediately take the $800 off the top that I owed my Mom.. Hhhhmmm... How much does that leave for the neccessities of living let alone rotating of tires???  I'm so pissed right now I don't even want to speak to my sister but of course, no sooner had I gotten off the phone with my Mom then she called.  I was short, very short and I'm quite certain she knew I was pissed but she never ever even attempts to open that can of whoop ass because she knows I will come unglued.  Her other bitch of the day was that my Mom is spending Christmas Eve at my house and then Christmas day.  My Mother was under the impression that my sister was working Christmas, she works every other fucking holiday so now my sister feels slighted and she says to me, "Well, I have Christmas and the next 2 days after that off so I'll be here for Christmas... Uh, how long is Mother staying at your house on Christmas day?"  I'm like, "I have no idea, I guess until she wants to go home."  My sister says, "Oh.. Well, if she wants to see me on Christmas I'll be here."  What fucking ever!  Ya' know whatever happened to the whole family getting together for the holidays???  When I lived in Idaho my sister there and her husband spent every holiday with us.  My sister here, her husband goes nowhere, he expects everyone to come to him but only for a certain amount of time and only when he says so.  It's total bullshit..  Anyway.  I'll probably be back on later for some more bitching because I have lots of decorating to do yet but I just really needed to get this off my chest.

Oh, and before I forget.  Take some pics of your fighter and post them here so I can see and of those other two fighters.  I'm going to check into who these guys are.
Back later.
BFF

funny and not

so today at work my mind was in the off switch when it came to actually working. not that i didn't work, i just really had to push myself to do any work. i am so afraid, as tired as i am, i will make some major mistakes. so i am talking to a co worker today about fudge and candy and such. she is planning on making those chocolate things that have peanuts in them, peanut clusters? anyway, she was chewing something and saying she couldn't find the peanuts with the skin on them, but it kept sounding like she was saying she couldn't find the penis with the skin on it. so i was saying penis and she was saying peanuts, back and forth until she said you know the ones with the skin on it? i said you mean the foreskin? and she busted out laughing so hard, the boss heard and was yelling something from his office at us, so i yelled back he needed to separate us, cuz it was getting bad. he yelled back that's what he was afraid of. that was about the excitement of the day.

so my fighter told me randy coulture and jeremy horn is now also scheduled to come down and train. course my fighter was excited and they are big names in the business.

well not only am i tired, but i have to roll to the sweat room and evacuate my bowels. gotta go!
BBB

GREETINGS FROM THE XANAX BITCH!

Dear Carol,
Holy hell, talk about adverse effects!!!  You thought I was a bitch before???  This Xanax is turning me into Satan himself!  My sister of course was the first to notice.. I haven't been putting up with her shit.  She wants me to go to the doc pronto, which, if I could I would but not this weekend, sorry, he's not in, he's only in on Wednesdays.  I thought about stopping all the meds he gave me except for the Cymbalta which I've been on for almost 2 yrs. now but apparently you can't just stop meds all of the sudden so I guess it's a weekend at Lucifer's Palace, wanna' come over???

I'm sorry you feel like dead man walking.  That totally blows.  Have you thought about getting a second opinion because I seriously think if you're coughing up liquids n' gunk there's something going on with your lungs.

My "Princess" has to have an ulta sound done on Monday.  She has excess fluid in her pelvis.  WTF??  And the doc thinks she may have an enlarged cyst on her ovary.  She's had enlarged cysts before so I'm hoping it's only that.  You know how paranoid I am about the whole cancer thing.. Which I'm not even going to go into on this post.

Oh hey, did you see someone from Ottawa, Ontario visited our blog?  It's because of the labels I'm telling you.  So I put up a "follow" box just in case anyone wants to follow us and the fascinating lives we lead, and we so do lead fascinating lives!  Maybe someone will read it and give us our own sitcom... We should have our own cable show!  We should be totally opinionated people watchers of the famous and not so famous and/or not at all famous and then we can just kick back and critique them or comment on something they've said or their hair, outfits.. Give them kudos when they deserve it.. Like Tiger Woods.. Despite the fact that he's a loser fuck around, money or not, I still give him kudos for not laying one hand on his wife while she was beating the shit out of him, maybe it was the fact that somewhere underneath his lying cheating loser fuck around ass, there lies a gentleman or maybe it was because he knew she'd fucking kill him.. Whatever his reasoning, and he doesn't seem to have much lately, kudos for not hitting a woman.

On that note my dear bestest friend in the whole wide wide world....... I'm outta' here!

I love you!
BFF

ho hum

another day of exhaustion here. the coughing will not go away, it gets bad in the night time and i don't get much sleep. i feel like the walking dead i am so tired. gonna try to sleep the evening away today, so i can get out and do something tomorrow. have to much to do to want to lay around and cat nap all day. well, gotta head back to the mine where i whistle while i work.
ciao
bbb

my thoughts, be them good or bad!

#1 son sounds like he will get more benefits than what you listed. It sounds like a high fluting place. Soooooo, if he plays his cards right, maybe he could become a gigolo/boy toy of some one that would take care of his needs, physically/emotionally/monetarily. I don’t think this is a bad thing; he just needs to remember that it would be her money and to act accordingly. And to be very careful with his heart, he needs to think about sex as just sex, don’t become involved, but for God’s sake, wear a freaking condom. He doesn’t need to hook up with another loser.


I did go to the doctor today and guess what? After getting the chest x-rays and blood work, there is nothing wrong with me. Huh? I knew this is what it was going to say, it always says I am in great health. So he says something about heartburn and I knew where he was going with that. My sister has reflux and it makes her cough, so of course, now I am going to be on reflux meds. AND he gave me an inhaler, even though I told him that I don’t have problems breathing. I feel like I have a popcorn kernel stuck in my throat, then I start to cough and it gets worse and worse as I start coughing harder and harder. These are two things we are going to “try” to see if they won’t help. We are slowly narrowing down the problem, or are we? Huh? The coughing just keeps getting harder and harder. I am taking a cocktail of meds at night now, including the sleeping pills, Robitussin, and Nyquil; the last two together to try to stop the coughing at night, but it only lasts a couple of hours, then I wake up and I am exhausted at work, I come home and about pass out. Blah. Tell your sister to back off-it must be nice to have perfect sleep. Tell her to put an alarm clock on, set for every hour and half, she has to get out of bed and wonder the house, preferably with a nail in her shoe giving her pain, then after 20 minutes, she can go back to bed. Then she won’t be able to go right back to sleep, but will have to get back up in 1 ½ hours again and start the process over. Ha! That would show her!

I tried to have Tata and I hang up lights, but she is really digging her heels in the ground about not wanting to do it. I tried the other night and then again today at noon. We have a ton of lights; I just want to try a little bit.

Tata is working Christmas so this should make for an interesting holiday. Someone is going to get bent out of shape, I can feel it coming.

The bonus was phenomenal, but the taxes chopped it in half and I mean in half. I was shocked! I was kinda expecting at least ¾ of it, but NO! Half! I feel like Eddie Murphy talking about marriage, HALF! Oh well, I will figure out another way to do what needs to be done.

Okay, nothing new here. Ttyl your BBB

I'M ALIVE.. SOMEWHAT..

Dear Carol,
Your Thanksgiving sounds like it could've done without the "drama queen."  Holy hell, what is her issue?  She's a good person at her core and I will forever believe that but these choices she is making and this attitude.. She really needs to get it in check.  She needs to see a therapist and work thru some of these things.  She had/has an excellent Mother and Grand-Mother, both amazing role models for independent women, not to mention her little sister getting out there and rolling her sleeves up getting in the game.  E.D. has done nothing from which she cannot bounce back, WE did it!  And were it not for those precious babies I would say "tough love" would be the route to take but you really can't do that when there's lit'l ones that need your love and tending to.  What a tuff spot for you to be in not only as a Mother but as Grandma..  I know Y.D. is watching and learning from all of this..

Kudos on your raise and bonus AND having the boss man actually come in and commend you on a job well done, you're right, that rarely happens.  I am so, so happy for you Carol... This has been a long time coming for you and no one deserves it more than YOU!

I'm very sorry that you're still sick.  Have you been to the doc?  Sounds like you have fluid in your lungs and that sounds like pneumonia!  You really, really need to be seen.  Please do so... I worry about you all the time!

Life here has been all about me getting used to these meds.  I swear to God I fall asleep at the drop of a hat, not good sleep mind you but sleep of sorts which is more than I was getting before so I am happy.  Now if I could sleep at normal times that would be great.  My lit'l sis is constantly harping on me about taking naps in the middle of the afternoon but I honestly don't have a choice.  My eyes just get heavy and I nod off.  I'm taking everything the way I'm supposed to except on the days when I have to pick Seth up and/or drop him off, then I can't have any of these meds in my system, impossible to drive! 

I took #1 son to do some paperwork for his new job.  He has absolutely got to hang onto this job Carol.  Check out the benefits he gets...

IMMEDIATE UPON HIRE -

• 40% discount on food/beverage
• 20% discount off merchandise at Boyne Country Sports
• Discounted golf privileges
• Discounted ski privileges
• Discounted water park privileges
• Tennis privileges
• Bike rentals
• Ski rental
• Discounted ski lessons
• Direct deposit
• 7 paid holidays at time and a half if worked
• Bereavement pay
• Marriage leave pay
• Referral bonuses
• Service recognition awards
• Company sponsored events

AT 90 DAYS -

• Medical, dental, vision, life, AFLAC and flex coverage at 90 days.
• Room discounts for self and family at 90 days

ONE YEAR -

• 401K after a yr.
• 30% discount on merchandise at Boyne Country Sports after a yr.
• Tuition reimbursement (full or part time students) after a yr.
• Paid vacation after a yr.

I think this is just awesome and what a great opportunity for him.  He can put "lit'l one" on his insurance so "the bitch" will stop bitching and come time for "lit'l one" to go to school, son #1 will have it totally together and "lit'l one" will go here instead of that bomb dump "the moron" lives in!

I've been feeling like a zombie and trying to function as such is near impossible.  I have no energy what-so-ever and yet I have decorating to get done.  I had son #3 bring some boxes up for me earlier... Thought I might just stay up and get done what I am able before I slip into my coma again.  My lit'l sis will dispute the fact that I'm up late at night and rather than being up I should just lie in bed until I fall asleep again.  I keep trying to tell her that it doesn't work that way but she refuses to listen.. She knows everything.. It's not my fault my body is off kilter right now.  I too would love nothing more than to go to bed at 10pm and wake up at 6am.  In fact that is my goal but right now it's not possible and it sucks and I don't need to hear about my irratical sleep patterns every single day from some one who hasn't the slightest clue about what it's like to live in excruciating pain day in, day out and to not be able to go to sleep like a normal person.  Does she seriously think I arrange my schedule to be like this???  I like not sleeping, I like being in pain???  I just hate it when people don't get it..

Anyway, I need to go.. I feel a coma coming on.  Please let me know when you're heading to the doc.
Luv U
BFF

whistle while you work?

Another day, another dollar, well, kinda. The vibe around work is odd lately. The vibe around the house is getting a wee bit better. I still haven’t managed to get the lights hung and when I told Tata about it, she said, let’s not do it, so I think that might be the plan.


I am hoping that everything comes together for Christmas. Some of the presents I ordered are on back order, go figure. And then these presents are for Nic of all kids.

Saturday, Tata and I have to go Christmas shopping for presents for the stockings held at work. I tried to get the whole parts house to participate, but the bitch was snide when she said no one on that side of the street would be interested. Yet when I talked to Tata and Kat, the parts driver, they jumped all over it and wanted to be included.

I am so lazy this year, I think because of the way I have been feeling. Lately it is getting worse again, it hurts so much to cough anymore. But I promised to help an organization get gifts for a program this weekend. I got some, but I didn’t get nearly what was expected. I just have been so blah, that’s a good word. I don’t have the energy to have the enthusiasm to get excited. Oh well.

Tomorrow I will get to see the next paycheck where I have a bonus and raise. I already know approximately how much, but I kind of am excited to actually see what it is. I need to get stuff paid and get ready for the next couple of weeks. Then in two weeks I have to have enough food to feed an army, they do a feed the face kind of things for about 14 days. Everyone who works in the office brings stuff on a day appointed to you. There is no getting out of it, otherwise, I probably would.

My boss was pretty cool today. When he came in to tell me about what to expect on the pay check, he also said a big thank you for helping him with all the extra stuff I have been doing; going to WA, taking over some other duties that I didn’t have before, just letting him know how things kinda work. It was nice to have a thank you, cuz those are very hard to come by at work nowadays.

Oh well, ttyl

Your BBB

...and the fun never stops!

E.D.=eldest daughter


E.G.=eldest grandson

M.G.=Middle grandson

Y.D.=youngest daughter

Y.G.=youngest grandson



I totally hear where you are coming from. Sleep, oh, blessed sleep! I have always said, give me my 8 hours of sleep (all eight hours) and I am the happiest I could possibly be. Less than that and I am not a happy camper, not by choice, I am more a zombie than anything.

I stepped on the scale yesterday. It groaned when it saw me coming, but as I started to stop on it, it started snap, crackling, and popping. Dirty bastard! I hate being this weight, I hate it, I hate it, and I hate it! You know how you want to starve just to lose weight and then you got eat something cuz you are so upset? That is so totally me. I am eating my weigh (pun) to disability at the rate I am going.

Thanksgiving was totally a familiar thing. E.D. threw a fit and decided she wanted to walk away, cuz grandma made her angry. I don’t even want to do Christmas with eldest. Every time we gather as a family, she gets angry and throws a fit. So anyway, she goes to the frig after we have eaten, even after the dessert and grandma tells her not to eat from the Ziploc bag; M.D. had packed the bag for her for lunch at work; a concept that E.D. has no clue about. Now E.D. feels like grandma is calling her fat (which she is, she is getting huge, over 250 I am betting) so she grabs the Y.G. and says they are walking. I just look at her, cuz I am not her freaking chauffer. Meanwhile, seeing she was not going to get her way, she calmed down a bit.

So, let’s go back one day, so E.G. was dropped off by his father, but she couldn’t take him, cuz she was going out partying. So E.G. ends up at grandma’s house for the night. Then on thanksgiving, E.D. doesn’t bring M.G. because he is with his other grandma. Now E.G. has not seen M.G. and really misses seeing him. E.D. has decided she is going to Boise for the weekend to watch the BSU game with aunt. She is planning on taking Y.G. (When I had spoken to her a couple of days earlier, she had told me she was taking Y.G. to the game, even though he has been sick. I was disgusted by this and let her know. ) So now we are at grandma’s house and I am informed by E.D. that I am to take her to Boise after dinner. I told her I there was no way I was taking her to Boise, so now she is angry again. So when asked, E.G. says he wants to go to my house, not hers for the night. I end up dropping her at a friend’s house.

So Saturday arrives and the phone starts to ring early in the morning. (Remember, I like you, just want to sleep. Friday night was one of the worst nights in the last 16 weeks of this coughing. I felt like I was drowning in the middle of the night, cuz now, fluid is coming up when I cough.) My mom is going to take E.G. home, we had planned on this going down on Sunday when E.D. would ride with mom to do the deed, but E.D. is still in Boise. Mom is wanted to miss the traffic of everyone going home. She says that M.D. can go with her, cuz I didn’t want to be in the car and have a coughing fit; they hurt and give me instant headaches. M.D. is pissed, why does she get volunteered to do things she doesn’t want to. Then we get a call from E.D. who wants to know when we are coming to pick her up. I was pissed. I told her I did not get that memo and there was no way I was going up there to pick her up. She says that she planned on E.G. spending the day with his aunt and then we were going to bring her home. OH NO YOU DI’INT! By the time all the phone calls between grandma and E.D. I told E.G. to get his clothes on and I would take him now. So the phone is ringing and ringing and I ignore it and spend the next 5 hours in the car driving E.G. home. I love that guy and wish he lived closer. But as we were walking out the door M.D. is putting clothes on to go. I look at her and tell her there is no way she is going with me. I tell her I can’t get her to do anything around the house without asking her, why the hell do I want her going with me? She gets angry and storms away in the house.

So this morning, Sunday, I am sleeping cuz again, not a good night; I am having to sleep sitting up, still have coughing fits, when the phone starts ringing early. I don’t answer it, cuz it is too early to get up, but it continues. Finally I get up and it is M.D. wondering if I was awake. I understand that she is working and it gets boring when you are by yourself at her job, but I just wanted to sleep. Only good thing I can say is that I can take a nap in a little while.

Oh here is another good one-welfare is now offering once a year a $200 voucher that can be used to quit smoking or join a gym; it's called preventative health. Okay so here is my beef-IF YOU HAVE TIME TO GO TO THE GYM, YOU HAVE TIME TO GET A FUCKING JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And this goes to E.D.! I can't believe that the government is stepping in and giving them more bullshit money to be used on shit. Fuck, if they have money to smoke, then they shouldn't be on welfare! Fuck these people who have excuses for everything, including why they can't get a job. E.D. won't go to job fair, cuz that means it's she may have to get a job. I am so fucking pissed over this shit. We don't have enough money for elderly, but we can now throw away $200 per useless person not wanting to work on welfare. Okay, now my adrenaline is up. And why is it that E.D. gets to go out and party pretty much every Wednesday; that is why E.G. couldn't stay with her the day before Thanksgiving, cuz she was going out? These welfare people would be so pissed at me if I were running the system. I would take blood monthly to insure they were not doing drugs or smoking if they wanted to be on welfare. I can't believe how easy it is for them. I remember being on welfare and wanting a job so bad so that I could get off of it. I begged to be in the guinea pig program they were holding to train people on getting jobs, they weren't even going to offer it to me. They had showed up at my neighbors house and she had told them hell no, but when I asked if they were going to my house, they told me no, so I begged to be put on the list. That was the beginning of the best part of being a job holder.

.ttyl, your BBB

THANKSGIVING, BLACK FRIDAY AND EARLY SATURDAY MORN...

Dear Carol,
Boy you sound like me!  Between the two of us I think we could easily sleep for the next 500 yrs.!  And that's no joke!  Even as I type this my eyes are closed and I'm weaving on my seat.  How crazy is that?  I'd go back to bed but I'd just lie there awake and have coughing fits, unfortunately in a few moments I may not have a choice.

I've took my meds - all exept for that cream - on time yesterday.  Went to bed at midnight and woke up at 5:30am.  It wasn't a straight sleep, I had the coughing spells but hey, it's a start right?

How was your Thanksgiving besdies tiring??  Mine was much the same.  I made enough food for a small army, don't know how to cook for small groups.  Totally missed out on Black Friday.  #1 son woke me at 4am and in my mind I said, "just 5 more minutes.."  Well you know how that goes.  I called my sister and apologized.  She was fine.. She didn't want to go anyway.  I totally get why my Dad always said he'd pay extra on down the road, he wasn't missing out on his sleep.  I totally get it...

Today is my last day to actually rest before having to take Seth back.  I've instructed the boys that they are to get my lights hung outside today, no ifs, ands or butts.  I want my house decorated damn it!

We got our first snow Thanksgiving evening.  It was really coming down when I was taking my Mom home.. I loved it.  She hated it.. Then after I dropped her off she called me every five minutes to make sure I was driving safe and making it home safely.. Are you kidding me, I was totally in my element!

Ran out of tea bags so I've been drinking hot water and surprisingly I like it.. Wonder if it's good for your body to be drinking hot water..

Sry but I must run.. Can't see any longer and just took my morning Xanax a few moments ago.

I love you bunches as always.
BFF

short and sweet?

Yesterday was a long day. I got up early, went back to sleep, slept till 11, had to get up and go to Mountain Home. I was soooo tired up there, I could barely move. Finally got home and played with eldest grandson for a while, then was out again.

I am up again early and , again, I am going back to sleep shortly. I think maybe if I get enough sleep, then I might be able to battle this, cuz the cough seems to have gotten worse again.

I bet the people are nuts out there this morning, being black friday and all. Just glad I am not out there.

Well, off I go, ttyl.

scattered thoughts

I was just sitting here trying to think of some thing to say for the title to you. And then I started thinking, why do you get interesting last names. I was thinking "have a very berry..." and "the moore the merrier".
What's up with that?

I got off early today, thanks to the boss, which I am thankful for. Not much sleep, yet again. The coughing is getting gross now, it is starting to get a flem based action. Yuck!

I talked to the neighbor's hubby and told him I wanted the emergency bills, but he kept saying no. I still need to see her, she was not at home a little while ago.

NEW MEDS

I love my new doc.  Totally, totally gets me.  We both agreed on no narcotics.  He did say however, that if the pain is too much we may have to go that route.  I choose not to and I'm hoping it doesn't get to that point.

The new meds -

• Capsasian, a cream to rub on my feet 3x a day.  It works on the pain on the surface and just below the surface of my feet.
• Tramadol, a pill that I take 3x a day - 50mg per pill - It works on the brain and how the brain processes the pain.
• Xanax, an anxiety pill.  I take 2 at bedtime.

I lost over 12lbs. - not trying, not a good sign. - My doc made me an appt. with my new oncologist for Jan. 6th.  I'm also enrolled in a sleep study for chronic insomnia but I don't know when that will start.  Some time after the 1st of the year I imagine. 

So, that's it, that's all.  I actually kept my appt. and I'm really proud of myself for that.  I was so scare and just between you, me and the fence post I am scared shitless about the up coming appts. Carol.  I don't want to die... My kids...  I can't even think about it.

Okay, nap time and then baking.  I love you bunches.
BFF

DR. APPT., NAP AND THEN THE BAKE OFF BEGINS!

Dear Carol,
Just a quick note.  Getting ready to jump in the shower.  My dr. appt. is at 10:45am.  Very nervous about going, don't want to go, don't like dr.'s and especially don't like going close to holidays, always bad news..  My goal is to get sleep meds and/or pain meds, if he gives me that I am ready for anything!  I just want to sleep!!!!!  When I get home I'll take a brief nap and then it'll be balls to the wall baking, cooking, prepping and decorating.  A busy, busy, busy day!!!  Keep the coffee coming!
BFF

WOW!

Dear Carol,
That totally blows about the neighbor.. She's not the kind to sue is she?  Our dog bit our neighbor in Boise and I ended up paying for the medical bills.  Thank God they didn't come after me for permanant scarring but it was a nip on the back of the little boy's calf.  In defense of your dog, she was probably thinking she was just doing her job..  Man, what a way to get woke up!  Holy hell.  Have you been able to go back to sleep??

I have a dr. appt. tomorrow.  Thank God it's in the morning.  The only thing I want him to tend to tomorrow is getting me to get some sleep!  Period.  I was supposed to have gotten a chest xray 3 weeks ago and never did but since I switched to this doc I don't see the point.  If he wants a chest xray I suppose he'll order it.  I'll bring it up to him that the other doc wanted one.

I was going to start baking tonight but I don't know if I'll get to it.  Depends on how I'm feeling a little later.  Right now I'd like to just go to bed and relax.  I got my shopping done, now it's all about the prep.  Plus this house needs to get in order big time.  Tomorrow the boys will do the lights outside and I will, between baking and prep, get the tree moved and decorated, and hopefully put up more decorations.

Right now I'm watching that show "Sons of Anarchy."  It's really good.  It has Peg Bundy in it and that guy that played the beast in that old tv show "Beauty and the Beast" with Linda Hamilton.  It's all about bikers.

Anyway, I'm out.  I may be back, I may not... Feeling kinda' blah... Hate being totally infused by stress and the urgency to get things done and just go, go, go all day and then totally crash at night...

Luv U. - Sry you had a shitty night.

BFF

PS - I look forward to reading more about your UFC guy.  You should post some pics here.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Dear KK

I am continual tired. I almost took a nap in my office at lunch today. Instead I came home after work, checked the TV guide and realized TADA! Nothing was on the tube tonight, thank God! I laid on the bed, remote closed tightly in my fist, cat jumps up and lays on my chest, and I fall asleep. I was out like a  light, when a banging came from the door and my dog started barking like the world was ending. I was pissed until I realized it was the neighbor coming over to get their turkey from the freezer. I hear Tata yell at the dog, then I hear "Are you okay? She's never done that before." Okay, now I jump up and race for the door. The neighbor is standing outside with a deep puncture wound in her leg and an unbelievably large bruise forming from whence the dogs teeth formed. The dog bit the inside of her leg, not around the leg, but straight on. There is a HUGE oval forming up and down her thigh. I cannot believe this happened, I am pissed at the dog, I even state I will take the dog out and shoot her, if it wil make my neighbor feel better.

My dog hates the neighbor's dog. One time the dog got in my yard and my dog had that dog by the neck and was flinging it around. I know my dog knows this is the owner of that dog and that is why she bit her. I just don't know what to do to ease the tension now. I did give her some painkillers, cuz it looked BAD.

I do have to tell you, Tata and I are going to be the only sponsors of a up and coming UFC fighter. We will be getting ring side tickets, shirts, and back stage passes. I am tickled I could help him.

SHOPPING DAY, HOUSE CLEANING..

ANOTHER DUMBASS MOMENT:  I almost ate a button thinking it was a peanutbutter Ritzbitz!!!!

MOST DISGUSTING MOMENT OF THE DAY:  Having to go pee after son #2 just dropped a corpse in the toilet and then having a coughing spasm whilst sitting amongst the corpse stench having to suck said stench into my lungs in an attempt to fucking breathe! - I nearly vomitted.

DUMBASS MOMENT OF THE DAY:  Laying down for a nap, waking up a couple of hours later and seeing the same bubbles and dishes in the kitchen sink that I meant to get to before I fell asleep and thinking, wow, either time stood still in our kitchen sink or that's some damn good dish liquid! - It was neither.  Son #2 had just re-ran the water because it had gone cold..

Dear Carol,
Good Morning!  #3 son woke me up this morning to hitch a ride to school.  Actually, he wasn't trying to hitch a ride, he was telling me that he woke up late because he didn't hear his alarm.  I told him to go start the car because that's his job when he wants a ride to school, the car has to be warm and windows defrosted.  Then he says, "but I'm not even dressed yet and it's 20 til."  To which I say, "well then you better go get dressed and start the car."  He schleps away and it's only as we're pulling out of the driveway that the ulterior motive of the whole "let's wake up Mom and tell her I over slept," comes out... Today is their last day to be in school before Thanksgiving break!  He didn't want to go because, and I quote, "we're not gonna' be doing anything anyway, even the teachers said we're not gonna' be doing anything."  Interestingly enough he says this every time I ask about homework or how sick he is reeeaaallly.  Anymore unless he's running a fever and projectile vomiting he goes to school.  A couple of weeks ago tho I did have a teacher call me and tell me to keep him home because he was having coughing fits in school and running to the bathroom every 5 minutes to blow his nose.  In any event, he woke me up!  His saving grace today was that I have to go to the grocery store and finish my Thanksgiving shopping otherwise his head would be on the chopping block trust you me!

So, the start to my day?  High tailing it to "Glen's" to shop and then coming home to clean house, bake and decorate the Christmas tree.  The rest of the men folk will be hanging lights outside! - Tis the season!
BFF

LOOOONNNNGGGG NITE

Dear Carol,
Okay, first I have to know why you're looking at camping trailers????  Don't get any ideas that you'll be moving your ass into the woods and I won't find you cuz' I will.  I'll be like a dog with a bone so if that's your plan I just want you to know I'm on to you and it won't work!

Oh my God, the more you tell me about work the more I'm glad I don't!  I remember those people... The ones who come and go as they please.  It's like, why bother coming in at all??  What's the point??  And management never seems to notice or if they do they're so passive aggressive that they do nothing.  Ya' know I was watching a PBS show about these communities that are popping up all over and they use what is called local currency, they print it up and they use it in their own communities and they barter.  It was really interesting and I really want to go visit one of them.  They have their own stores and they use their local currency in them.  Very, very interesting to me.  Of course the ones who aren't fortunate enough to have windmills still have to pay "the man" but as their communities progress "the man" will cease to exist and I think that will be wonderful.  Anyway, just something I'm going to keep an eye on.

Yes, you told me about your UFC guy and I think it's absolutely wonderful of you and "Miss T" to be part of his journey.  And you're right.  It's not often that you get the opportunity to be a part of someone fulfilling their passion and seeing their dreams come to fruition.  Kudos to you and "Miss T."

My idea to take "lit'l one" Thanksgiving shopping with me was not my greatest idea.  I got maybe 12 items in my cart and decided it was time to leave and head over to my sisters to let "lit'l one" run off some excess energy.  We did have fun tho.  Imaginary snowball fights in the Jeep complete with sound effects and Christmas music.  "Lit'l one" sure loves my sister and all of her animals.

After I dropped "lit'l one" back home I snagged #2 son and went into Petoskey to Walmart and I bought my white Christmas tree for a whopping $35!  6.5 ft. tree WITH lights!  I thought it was a steal and totally what I needed to put together my "Frosty The Snowman" theme.  It's not a huge fluffy tree but I have enough stuff to fill in the thin spots.  I bought some more "Frosty" ornaments and I found a really cool blue wreath to put above the fireplace.  It's a little smaller than I wanted but I'll put something on either side to balance things out, it'll be cool.  I couldn't find a "Frosty" hat ANYWHERE so I went to JoAnne Fabrics and bought some black felt thinking I'm just going to have to make his hat.  The cashier suggested I go to the Goodwill store next door and I was like, "I'm not putting some old dead guy's hat on my "Frosty The Snowman" brand new Christmas tree but thanks anyway."  The two women in line started laughing but I was serious!  It'd be my luck the hat I picked out would've previously belonged to some old black guy and the lights on the tree would heat it up and my whole house would smell like a fucking Jerry Curl!!!  I'm in search of "Frosty The Snowman" like stuffed animals (only a snowman of course) too. 

Oh #2 son and I also went to the most fabulous Chinese buffet too... So, so yummy!

Came home, put the tree up, hung the "Frosty" door flag or whatever you call it, it goes from the top of the door down to the bottom.  Very cute.  I played with "lit'l one", he helped with the tree.  He's so, so funny.  I bought him a "Frosty" that you squeeze his foot and he lights up and sings the "Frosty" song, the real one by Jimmy Durante.  I love it and so does "lit'l one", he danced to it all night.  He's so excited to help me decorate it tomorrow!  And he's going to help me with Thanksgiving dinner too.  God I just love that little boy so much..  I so enjoy his company, his wonderful spirit and he's so stinkin' funny!

I talked with my sis out in Idaho tonight.  No one will go shopping with her on "Black Friday" and she's totally bummed.  I would so be going with her were I there.  Talked with my Mom a little bit ago.  She's up all night too.  #3 son is asking for a laptop for Christmas and has been keeping me abreast of pricing.  I'm not getting him one, I'm getting myself one.  And I know that sounds mean but I don't care.  I deserve my own computer.  I'm going to get the small one, the note pad I guess it's called.  I don't need it for games or anything like that, I just need to get on here and FB and check my mail.  Read the news, blah, blah.  #3 son is going to be sooooooooooooooo mad!

Heading to bed.  It is now 2:18am.

As always, I love you bunches!

Your BFF

labor laws

I think that there should be labor laws that actually allow me to stay at home and sleep. They would also let me go to work when I wanted to. I think that I would probably put in more work, if I were more rested. Then there is the lady that will go into labor anytime. She comes and goes at work per her will, course this was happening before the shirt began to shrink up front.

I can't remember the last time I had a full night sleep, I know it's been over a year, but I think it actually was longer than that. Aw, to be young and not have worries or sickness.

Tata and I are going to sponsor a UFC fighter. I don't know if you know anything about it, but we are throwing our hats into the ring and gonna help this guy. He is actually like family, elder daughter #1 calls him her cousin. It's kinda exciting, cuz this is something he really wants to do, a passion and I get to help. It's not often you can help someone fulfill a passion.

THANK GOODNESS THAT THIS WEEK IS A SHORT WEEK! Have son number #2 sing Hallelujah for me a couple of times.

I have to tell you, you had two people rolling with laughter yesterday. I was telling them the story of you wrapping the rocks in tin foil, the haybale/cemetary, and the scavenger hunt.

I did see the Adam segement yesterday and did not like it very much. I like that he was risque, but the music was actually hard to hear, so I mangaged to get the song and I like it!

I was looking at camper trailers today, thinking, that maybe..........

love you, can't say miss you, cuz I ain't aiming!
your BBB

OFFICIAL GOOD MONDAY MORNING!

Dear Carol,
Hhhhmmm... I was actually sleeping when boy child #3 came in and WOKE ME UP to drive him to school!!!  In all fairness to #3 and quite possibily his only saving grace from a life of continuous child labor, is that I do recall asking him to wake me up because I needed to go grocery shopping... UGH!!!  In the words of Pink... "I"m a hazzard to myself!"

Anyway, I have nothing earth shattering to share so I won't bore you any further, besides, I already have like what, a hundred posts???  I'm such a post hog!

Hope you're having a GREAT day!!!  I miss you and love you bunches, always, always.

Your very own personal BFF!!!

JUST IN CASE YOU MISSED HIM... ADAM LAMBERT 2009 AMA'S

2nd ATTEMPT AT TRYING TO SLEEP...

Dear Carol,
Oh look! I'm awake!  Wow!  I think I nodded off the 1st time around 10:30pm and now here I am up... Not for the day, trust me.

#2 son is still up.. Hhhhmmm.. This only means he'll be sleeping the day away.. Whatever.. Right now he's making me a cup of hot tea.  I'm still trying to get over this "bug" or whatever it is that decided to land in my head and chest and stay.. It's not cancer related because when I blow my nose it's neon green so it's definitely a "bug" of some sort.  Good thing I'm going to the doc on Wednesday.  Maybe he'll give me some anti-biotics!  What a concept!  Maybe he'll give me something for my pain too and maybe, just maybe he'll give me something to help me sleep!  THAT would be the million dollar prescription as far as I'm concerned.  I just want to sleep!

WOW!  Didn't mean to be a bitch just now but #2 son brought me my cup of tea, which was wonderfully thoughtful, unfortunately he put enough sugar in it to take down an elephant and altho I may be the size of one, I'm not one and bitch that I am back to the kitchen it went... For a new cup... Sorry...

Checked all my stuff on FB.. Still have about a half hour for one of my virtual meals to come off the stove in "Cafe' World" and then I guess I'll go back to bed and try to sleep..

I feel like hell.  My head feels like a giant cotton ball and I want/need someone to do that coning shit to my ears!  You know where they do the wax n' all that.. Supposed to do wonders.  I'd like to find out!

Went back and put "Dear Carol" in all my posts and added "labels.." The topics my post covers.. We'll now have another box on the right listing all of our "labels."  What labels do is send out micro messages to the world wide web so when joe blow in kansas is googling UFC or sleep or kids, etc., our blog will pop up.  Funny, huh?  A fellow blogger told me about it.  Imagine the poor fool who stumbles across our rants.

I am soooooooooooooooo tired!  For some reason tho once I get in bed I'm wide awake.  I know that's a common problem so wouldn't it stand to reason that there would be a common solution???  Ggggggrrrr... I just cannot deal with this any longer!

Okay.. It's 4am.. I'm heading to bed.. FB is under control.. My tea is now cold.. My jaw is clinched so tight it would take the jaws of life to unhinge it!  I can barely keep my eyes open!!!!  This could be a good thing.

I'm going to post a video for you..

BFF

1st ATTEMPT AT GOING TO BED

Dear Carol,
First, very cool about your UFC sponsorship! Congratulations all around.  I've never been to one of those events but I hear they are brutal.  I'd be peeking thru my fingers the whole time.. I don't think I could handle it.

I didn't watch "Up."  It was on and from the sounds of it "lit'l one" didn't watch it either.  He was too wound up from the trip.  It usually takes him a day to get back in the swing of things.  Tomorrow I am getting up early and taking "lit'l one" grocery shopping with me. - Thanksgiving dinner. -  I had planned on going today but I was just too pooped after the ride.  It's only 3 hours round trip now instead of 5 but it's still tiring.

I'm taking #1 son to get his license tomorrow.  He has to do it because I can no longer be pulled in 50 million directions.  Too much running for me, my body just cannot do it anymore.  Not sure what his hold up has been up to this point and I don't care, all I know is the buck stops here.  The stress in my life is killing me, literally!

I took one and a half darvacet this afternoon and that was relaxing, barely touched the pain but I did manage to drift off to sleep for a bit. 

How do you like the boxes I added to the right?  Just something to jazz the place up. : )

Well, #1 son and "lit'l one" have gone to bed.  Son's #2 and #3 are having a rather loud conversation right next to me.  Son #2 is playing a video game and son #3 is chattering away about some kid at school who failed a test because he didn't have his "weed" for the day.  - Nice. -

Anyway, I'm heading to bed.  I'm sure I'll be up later and I'm sure I'll be writing.  Need to take my "crazy" pill... My pup is sitting next to me staring at me.. She knows it's time for bed.  If only I could sleep the night thru...

Luv U

BFF

up, up, and away

Hey BFF

I too, have the movie UP and cried my eyes out in the beginning. I sure am glad I didn't see it at the movies, that would have sucked to start crying. It's a great movie, but sad.

Well, I am an official sponsor of a UFC fighter, both Tata and I are. As a young man, I actually protected him one night, so when I told him I was going to sponsor him, I told him now he could go bust some heads. He will be training with Jens Pulver, Little Evil. I was so excited about that, and then He said that I would be able to go to some bout, that was cool.

I am just finishing UP and will be watching my reality shows here in a moment.

Love you
BBB

AWESOME!

Dear Carol,
This is working out well!!  Loved your post.  The liar is a sociopath to be sure.  I'd steer clear of her as much as I could.  Those are the people who go on killing sprees.

Yeah, the sentences were somewhat choppy but I understood.  I'm sorry your hand is hurting, hell, I'm sorry ALL of you is hurting!!!

Obviously I'm home now.  The boys and lit'l one are all chattering away.  I'm going to take a nap.  I need sleep desparately!!!

The "trade off" was seamless.  Idiot didn't bring her ghetto flavor of the month, maybe they broke off, maybe he died a horrible death.  Either way I'm equally concerned, which is not at all.  Idiot did tell me not to worry about Thanksgiving and Christmas because her birth creature has to work at the sugar beet factory so they'll be celebrating everything a week late.  I wasn't worried.  Lit'l one, according to the parenting schedule, was to spend Thanksgiving and Christmas with us anyway. - She's an idiot.

We have that movie "Up" but we haven't watched it yet.  We were waiting for lit'l one so tonights the night.

Okay, I'm out.  I really need to sleep.  I'm going to take a darvocet and see if that helps at all.

Your snow flakes sound so pretty.  Take some pics and post one on here. - Have you fiddled around with the buttons up there?  The picture next to "link" is where you upload photos.

Luv this blog and I love you too!

BFF

Dear K.K.

It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas. It started snowing outside, it is a mixture of rain and snow. I was just down visiting Tata, when the liar bitch showed up. First a friend named J showed up, and he was telling Tata and I, the Mexican story, a totally different story. She never mentioned the man going to the front desk and grabbing the baby holding it and stating he would hurt the baby if the court didn’t tell him where liar was that. She has so many stories, don't know which are right. He did say, she did go into mexico, but I want to know how, with no passport? And if you were being kidnapped, you wouldn't grab your passport before you left, cuz I think she has one.


So today my plan is to cut more snowflakes I’m debating on whether I should hang them on the walls of my offic, if I do that I have to make more color of one’s. It really takes awhile to making good snowflake I think I like the littler ones that from having why six points instead of a 8 point ones.

I am actually typing this one to you by using my speech recognition program. Hopefully it will stop my hand from hurting. I can’t use it when I’m on my multiple instant messenger, it seems to want to hear other words than what I’m actually saying. So if the sentences don't jive, sorry.

I personally do not think I’m going to do anything grand today I think I will watch the movie UP. It looks like it might be a cute movie.

I can’t believe how cold it is outside and that’s probably why you’re going to get the snow on Thursday I think you said is because we are getting it today but I don’t know how long is going to actually snow. The win outside is brisk and biting on it believable how chilly air early as ready as I sat in my room with the air conditioner on still.

I had been talking to my friend J earlier before I went to the part’s house. We had been talking about the UFC and when one last night’s bout. My friend Mary has a nephew named john who is an ultimate fighter and trains to hopefully go professional. Last night he got to watch the fighting with Jen’s Pulver and J was somewhat jealous over the fact. My friend is a big UFC watcher. When I found out we could’ve went to Nampa and met Jen’s, I think he was even more excited. Jen’s is going to open up a gym in the Nampa, and my friend is thinking that he may go start working out at the gym.

I am going to bounce right now, as I wish to make more snowflakes but I will blog later. Love you.

Your BBB-big beautiful bitch.

SUNDAY SILLINESS

Dear Carol,
I awoke at 5am and have thus far, done the following:

Spent countless, useless hours on FB, playing 3 useless games and spying on others.
Made coffee.
Washed a load of laundry and put it in the dryer.
Wrapped another "wall present."

Currently I am drinking cold coffee and sitting in my pajamas. - Buzzer just went off on dryer, have to start it again, it takes 2 tumbles to dry a load. Definitely need a new washer and dryer. -

#1 son is asleep on the couch, #2 and #3 are upstairs sleeping in their beds.

It's going to be about 55 here today so I've shut off the heat, perhaps a bit too soon because I'm freezing.

Plans for the day -

Pick up lit'l one from the moron.
Go grocery shopping for Thanksgiving dinner.
Come home and relax.

As you can see, my life is one exciting venture after another.

Time for more coffee - HOT - and to turn the dryer back on.

I hope you like this personal blog made just for you. I thought about starting notebooks in Jan., just writing a little something every day and then when the notebook was filled mailing it to you but I'm such a loser about sending things off, I'll be surprised if I get my Christmas cards out on time!

More later... I know you're sitting on the edge of your seat and biting your nails in anticipation.

Sincerely,
Your BFF