Merry Christmas and good trimmings

Good tidings to all, this is a different Christmas for me. It’s the first time that I am not celebrating the day opening presents, and it’s not because of me. Usually I worked, trying to squirm my way out of the day, but today Tata is working, so I can use her as an excuse. Really, not an excuse, but I am still tired all the time and just don’t want to go to the city after 5 when it starts getting dark.


We gathered all the presents and put them by the door and stood back looking at just how many there were. WOW! I think we outdid last year and there was a load then. I have decided next year, maybe just envelopes…lol.

I think it would be great to have a scavenger hunt to find the presents, especially for the little ones. I didn’t like last year when the middle grand child would grab one of his presents, rip open the paper, toss it to the side, and ask where his next one was. I was not even the present that got him excited, it was seeing how many he was going to get. It disturbed me, cuz he just tossed them, not caring if they broke, he didn’t care who had given them to him, I was perturbed. If it happens this year, he may not get any next year.

My eldest child upset me a little this week. The children’s toy box is over flowing very much so. She put the kids’ name on the giving trees around town. When one of them only brought one gift, she called them and told them that wasn’t fair, so they are going out of their way to get more for the kids. I told her that she didn’t have to do that, as the kids were getting plenty of stuff from the family, that those presents should be used for kids that really needed it.

Well, I guess I am going to sign off, just wanted to say Merry Christmas, may the spirit of Christ help you through your trying times. This is my time to pray and ask for you. God bless.

Your BBB

Survivor - Samoa - Russell

Russell did not win the game and I am pissed! This man was hated by me so much, I called him every name in the book. He played the best game I have every watched, and I have watched every episode from day one of Survivor, except one. He is the craziest player, the best player bar none. Noboby outplayed this man, noone out thought this man, noone out witted this man. What a crock that he did not win!

Russell is the best player I have every seen!

Happiness is truly a state of mind.

I am jamming out today, listening to Lady Gaga, Muse, Carrie Underwood, among some. Lady Gaga’s Bad Romance takes me back to the disco days and I have to say I really enjoyed the shit out of those days. Carrie Underwood’s Cowboy Casanova makes me want to get better and go dancing and you know I hate country music. But this makes me move my head and pout my lips, giving me attitude. Now Muse’s Uprising makes me want to jump up and down on the bed and just gets me feeling young. Not that I have the ability to jump up and down on the bed, but it’s a great thought in my head. Yesterday I sat around, at night, and cried listening to Bob Seger. God he brought back great times in my life. I so miss those days. I was fun back then, I loved, I lived, I felt alive.

Not anymore, my knees are pretty swollen; thus no jumping. Hell, I can barely walk. Yesterday I spilled some nut shells on the floor and about died trying to pick them up. I had to use my cane to lean on and then I felt like the big bad wolf in 3 little pigs. I was a huffing and puffing, but instead of blowing anything (damn!), I about passed out.

The coughing is as bad, I cough so hard I see black. If not pure black, then I see black stars and I get real woozy for a few seconds. Blah! My ribs sometimes feel like I am breaking them when I cough, it hurts so bad. But enough of my wa-wa. I am still napping whenever I can, today I got up the first time at 10:45 and was back to sleep at around 1 until 5:30. I couldn’t even get enough energy to go to the big city today. Thank god all my Christmas shopping is done, I wouldn’t be able to do anymore. I am not going back to the doctor until next year, and no thanks on the valium, I am trying to stay awake, not crash for 24 hours.

I hate thinking that I am never going to get better, all the way around, including the knees. I hate thinking I may never get out of my bedroom, other than going to work. I hate thinking my life is basically going to be what it is now, until I die. There is no real happiness, I laugh, I smile, but I don’t feel, you understand? I think in some ways my heart feels broken or empty.

Let me tell you, money does not buy happiness. I have money now, I am not happy. I am not talking about millions, but I am very comfortable, compared to how I have lived the last 30 years. I want for nothing, I lack for nothing. I had more fun when I was pooooooooor trying to figure out how my finances were going to be paid. Weird! Happiness really is a state of mind and my mind can't seem to grasp that. I am happy at work, cuz other people are bummed, so I am trying to bring them up, but when I get home, again, I feel nothing.

I am stopping now, can't go on.

Love you

Your BBB

OH AND ONE MORE THING

Totally excited about your normal poop!  I really am.  Again, I will address this topic possibly tomorrow.  I'm so happy for you.  I know how great that feels. - Anyone reading this is gonna' think we're nut jobs.. Whatever, don't fucking read it.. -

Love you again.

Your BFF

VALIUM

Dear Carol,
The doc gave me valium to replace the xanax.  Valium is one crazy ass med, this I will tell you!  I'll write more on this topic when I don't feel like I'm trapped in the 60's...

In the meantime.  How are you?  Any relief?  Might I suggest valium? 

I have to go now.

I love you bunches.

Your BFF

gotta say what I gotta say

So I have some exciting news, I took a dump and for the first time in forever I had a regular bowel movement! I was so jacked; I had to tell Tata about it. I know that may not be exciting to some, but when your body evacuates itself faster than you can retain food, this is almost a miracle.


I am so finished with Christmas presents; this is the first time ever I am ahead of the game. I think because of this, my body knows it is not under stress. At least not in the bowel way. I am still so stinking tired, I nap all the time when I have days off, I want to when I am at work, but can’t. I have given up going to the doctors this year, the cough will not go away so the next step is the ears, nose, and throat doc. I am so not looking forward to that. My sister was going through something like what I am doing and they made her stick a string attached to some sort of device, in her nose, down her throat. She also had the other end in another device behind her ear. She was to wear this for a 24 hour period to see what her stomach was doing. She was in a store when she got sick and threw up the device. So now she has this string thing running through her nose coming out her mouth. She had to pull it through her mouth and out her nose. Fuck that! I would have cut the damned thing. This is why I don’t want to go to the doc. I don’t want them shoving something down my throat to figure out why I am coughing

So work is going pretty good, I am trying to be in a better mood. Poor Tata having to work with the pathological liar is driving her to being sick. Now she understands why I had to get out of there, cuz I couldn’t do it anymore.

I have not been out anywhere, I have not done anything, my knees are pretty painful lately, so I am not engaging in any fun. So this will be short, maybe not sweet.

Keep on bitching! I love you for that.

Your BBB

WHERE HAVE I BEEN?? WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?? SICK?? ME TOO!!!

Dear Carol,
God I am so sick of being sick and tired - ALL THE FUCKING TIME!!!!

Right now I'm at home alone.  I can hardly believe it, not a sound to be heard but me on the keyboard. - Nice.

I'm still trying to get decorated.  At this rate I'll be decorating straight thru to Christmas Eve!  I'm just SO tired!  Never thought I'd say this, but I can't wait to see my doc on Wed. so he can prescribe me something else!  This Xanax is THE WORST!  I'm a raving bitch and I know I'm a raving bitch and I apologize but I can't stop it!  It's so stupid!!!

My brother was up for the weekend and got a deer.  He gave it to me.  It's ready to be picked up but that'll have to wait until tomorrow.  I don't even know how to get to the town where he and my bro in law dropped it off to be processed.  In any event, it was fun having my brother up, what time I got to spend with him.  My sister pretty much hogged him all to herself but whatever.. In actuality my brother was in his blind most of the time he was here, the blind just happened to be on their property..  My brother brought Christmas gifts for everyone, which was very nice of him.  He got me a snowman for my tree, an ornament that looks JUST LIKE my dog, for my tree and a card with money in it for me and the boys.  It was very nice and thoughtful and he didn't have to do that.

#3 son was in a talent show over the weekend.  I didn't go because I was exhausted. - Give me the Mother of the Year Award.. I'm such a bitch. - He didn't place but he had fun and got exposure and some other guys asked him to be in their band up here so he was happy.

#1 son loves his job.. Wish he'd get his license.. Sure would make life a helluva' lot easier on me.. "Lit'l one" had to be taken to the pick up/drop off and then #1 son had to go to work, then we - I took sons 2 and 3 with me - headed to my Mom's, then to my sisters, opened my brothers gifts, ate some chili, chatted for a bit and then back on the road at 9pm to pick up #1 son from work and with the roads the way they are it's a little over an hour drive.. So figure on Sunday I drove 1.5 hr. to drop "lit'l one", drove back 1.5 hr., total of 3 just for that little jaunt, then out to son's work, just over an hour, then back from son's work, so about 2.5 hours there, my Mom n' sis are on the way so no biggie and then the last trip out to pick him up, just over an hour and then back, just over an hour, so 2.5 hrs. again... Let's see.. 8 hrs. in the car yesterday.....  "Mom, why are you in such a bad mood?"  Asks #3 son.... Hhhmmm, between the shitty meds and living in my vehicle, my body being in excruciating pain and the pounding in my head... I really don't know why I'm in such a bad mood...

Anyway, so that's what's been going on here... How 'bout you?  Feeling any better?  My brother gave my Mom two vicodin which she splits in half so she's not been in as much pain.. I was glad for that.  Still pissed that my sister wouldn't fill that script she had and give some to my Mom, my Mom was never selfish with hers when she had extra..

Okay, I'm gonna' take full advantage of my quiet house and go rest..  Oh, and I saw pics of my Boise boy toy's new woman... She's pretty and I hate her and I hate him but I want him to be happy just not with her and that's pretty much the way I feel about that.
Signed your bitchy...
BFF

GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE!

Dear Carol                                     Wednesday, December 9, 2009          9am
Well, just getting ready to start a fire and then get busy with decorating.  I've been up since about 6:30am.  #2 son was also up but he hadn't been to bed so when I got up he stumbled upstairs... We got into a small little tiff yesterday and apparently he decided he'd stay up cleaning all night... Hhhhmm, perhaps we should have these little tiffs more often.

Can't seem to get used to these new meds.  I'm tired all the time... I have a dr. appt. next Wednesday so hopefully he can help  me out.. AND I'm going to have him look at my very first ever ingrown toe nail which I find to be so disgusting.. It's not not red and bloated but it's pink and it hurts like a bitch!

I'm sure you've seen our weather conditions out here.  Total blizzard but we don't have those cold temps that you guys have... You're down right frigid!  If our temps were any cooler we wouldn't be having all of this snow.. People don't get that but it's true, it can be too cold to snow.  We're supposed to get 11" - 17" of snow today ON TOP of what we've already gotten and here that's over a foot!

Oh, I saw the PPV UFC advertisement.. UFC 107?  Is that the one?  And I saw the hot guys.. Wow.. They really are amazing aren't they???

Well, I just heard "lit'l" one.. Better get off of here so I can get him breakfast.. #1 son starts his job today!  He's so totally jacked and so am I!!!!

I'll wrie more sooner than later.
Luv U
BFF

aging and not well

dig the hat?! maybe, maybe not...looks ike you should have your auger in hand heading for the iced over lake, ready to do some fishing...OMG

got all the presents wrapped today, some dishes and some laundry. it's been in the 20's all day, just a nice day to stay inside. no lights up this year, apparently, not going to either.

tomorrow back to work...blah

here is an odd thought...do you know who bruce greenwood the actor is?

this man just gets better looking with age. i never thought of him as "bangable", but i definitely do now, and you know my theory on older men.

do you know House is the same age as me?

remember michael schoeffling? sixteen candles? i had the hots for him so bad back then, thinking why couldn't they make boys look like that when i was in school and today found out he is just a year younger than me.....OH GOD I AM GETTING SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OLD.

oh well, enough of my nonsense....time to relax and blend in with the bed. tata is sitting in my room bundled up like she is in your country. it's like 40-50 degrees in my room, i think that is plenty warm. i am sitting in shorts and a tank top....

okay love you!
BBB

Pics

the one on the left is John (my "newphew" and Josh Burkman, a UFC fighter
the one above is John and Jens "lil evil" Pulver


John wrote and told me that Randy Couture, Matt Hughes, and Jeremy Horne will be coming in the next few months.
then tonight they announced on the UFC finales that Chuck Liddell and Tito Ortiz are going to be coaching the next series. I was so stoked. I love CHUCK! he was on dancing with the stars, but I don't watch that. But I am excited over anything UFC.

Tony" The Freak" Fryklund and John

here is a pic of CHUCK!!!!

gonna go to sleep. Love you BBB

PENIS FORESKIN???

HYSTERICAL!!!!!

Just taking a break from phone calls and decorating..  My Mom called and filled me in on how my sister is forever critisizing everything I do and I know she does because she tries to do the same to me but in a much less bitchy way so I know how she is.  Today her bitch is that I spend my money on junk for the kids and too much stuff for "lit'l one" and that I'm letting my car fall apart, none of which is true.  Unlike her I chose to take my money and actually pay my bills and even after spending nearly all of my cash I'm still a month behind.  She said, "I thought you zeroed out your bills."  I said, "In as much as I could, getting them paid to where I'm only a month behind is zeroing them out to me."  When I get sick of her bullshit I call her Suze Orman.  And ya' know, if she had her finances in order I might listen but she doesn't.  She has two homes and that property because of the sweat of my parents, who, she owes over $125k to, just FYI.  And as far as my car is concerned.  Months ago my sister's husband told me that I needed to get my tires rotated before the snow falls.  I'm like, "I will."  Well I didn't and my sister mentioned it to me again and told me that her husband is really upset because I travel with "lit'l one" in my vehicle and he likes that little guy.  First of all, I don't jump when her husband tells me I should do something and I NEVER will!  Second, my vehicle is fine.  I have an appt. for Monday to get the tires rotated and to have that computer analysis done on it because the "check engine" light came on yesterday.  The mechanic said not to worry, it's probably just the gas cap, which apparently is some kind of issue in newer cars.  He said if it starts flashing then I'll have problems.  I got my oil changed today and my vehicle, again, is fine.  My sister's husband is pissed because when I got a $2000 check I didn't immediately get my tires rotated.  Well call me fucking stupid but I'm thinking rent, utilities, food, clothing, gas, insurance are all a little more important than rotating tires and when you immediately take the $800 off the top that I owed my Mom.. Hhhhmmm... How much does that leave for the neccessities of living let alone rotating of tires???  I'm so pissed right now I don't even want to speak to my sister but of course, no sooner had I gotten off the phone with my Mom then she called.  I was short, very short and I'm quite certain she knew I was pissed but she never ever even attempts to open that can of whoop ass because she knows I will come unglued.  Her other bitch of the day was that my Mom is spending Christmas Eve at my house and then Christmas day.  My Mother was under the impression that my sister was working Christmas, she works every other fucking holiday so now my sister feels slighted and she says to me, "Well, I have Christmas and the next 2 days after that off so I'll be here for Christmas... Uh, how long is Mother staying at your house on Christmas day?"  I'm like, "I have no idea, I guess until she wants to go home."  My sister says, "Oh.. Well, if she wants to see me on Christmas I'll be here."  What fucking ever!  Ya' know whatever happened to the whole family getting together for the holidays???  When I lived in Idaho my sister there and her husband spent every holiday with us.  My sister here, her husband goes nowhere, he expects everyone to come to him but only for a certain amount of time and only when he says so.  It's total bullshit..  Anyway.  I'll probably be back on later for some more bitching because I have lots of decorating to do yet but I just really needed to get this off my chest.

Oh, and before I forget.  Take some pics of your fighter and post them here so I can see and of those other two fighters.  I'm going to check into who these guys are.
Back later.
BFF

funny and not

so today at work my mind was in the off switch when it came to actually working. not that i didn't work, i just really had to push myself to do any work. i am so afraid, as tired as i am, i will make some major mistakes. so i am talking to a co worker today about fudge and candy and such. she is planning on making those chocolate things that have peanuts in them, peanut clusters? anyway, she was chewing something and saying she couldn't find the peanuts with the skin on them, but it kept sounding like she was saying she couldn't find the penis with the skin on it. so i was saying penis and she was saying peanuts, back and forth until she said you know the ones with the skin on it? i said you mean the foreskin? and she busted out laughing so hard, the boss heard and was yelling something from his office at us, so i yelled back he needed to separate us, cuz it was getting bad. he yelled back that's what he was afraid of. that was about the excitement of the day.

so my fighter told me randy coulture and jeremy horn is now also scheduled to come down and train. course my fighter was excited and they are big names in the business.

well not only am i tired, but i have to roll to the sweat room and evacuate my bowels. gotta go!
BBB

GREETINGS FROM THE XANAX BITCH!

Dear Carol,
Holy hell, talk about adverse effects!!!  You thought I was a bitch before???  This Xanax is turning me into Satan himself!  My sister of course was the first to notice.. I haven't been putting up with her shit.  She wants me to go to the doc pronto, which, if I could I would but not this weekend, sorry, he's not in, he's only in on Wednesdays.  I thought about stopping all the meds he gave me except for the Cymbalta which I've been on for almost 2 yrs. now but apparently you can't just stop meds all of the sudden so I guess it's a weekend at Lucifer's Palace, wanna' come over???

I'm sorry you feel like dead man walking.  That totally blows.  Have you thought about getting a second opinion because I seriously think if you're coughing up liquids n' gunk there's something going on with your lungs.

My "Princess" has to have an ulta sound done on Monday.  She has excess fluid in her pelvis.  WTF??  And the doc thinks she may have an enlarged cyst on her ovary.  She's had enlarged cysts before so I'm hoping it's only that.  You know how paranoid I am about the whole cancer thing.. Which I'm not even going to go into on this post.

Oh hey, did you see someone from Ottawa, Ontario visited our blog?  It's because of the labels I'm telling you.  So I put up a "follow" box just in case anyone wants to follow us and the fascinating lives we lead, and we so do lead fascinating lives!  Maybe someone will read it and give us our own sitcom... We should have our own cable show!  We should be totally opinionated people watchers of the famous and not so famous and/or not at all famous and then we can just kick back and critique them or comment on something they've said or their hair, outfits.. Give them kudos when they deserve it.. Like Tiger Woods.. Despite the fact that he's a loser fuck around, money or not, I still give him kudos for not laying one hand on his wife while she was beating the shit out of him, maybe it was the fact that somewhere underneath his lying cheating loser fuck around ass, there lies a gentleman or maybe it was because he knew she'd fucking kill him.. Whatever his reasoning, and he doesn't seem to have much lately, kudos for not hitting a woman.

On that note my dear bestest friend in the whole wide wide world....... I'm outta' here!

I love you!
BFF

ho hum

another day of exhaustion here. the coughing will not go away, it gets bad in the night time and i don't get much sleep. i feel like the walking dead i am so tired. gonna try to sleep the evening away today, so i can get out and do something tomorrow. have to much to do to want to lay around and cat nap all day. well, gotta head back to the mine where i whistle while i work.
ciao
bbb

my thoughts, be them good or bad!

#1 son sounds like he will get more benefits than what you listed. It sounds like a high fluting place. Soooooo, if he plays his cards right, maybe he could become a gigolo/boy toy of some one that would take care of his needs, physically/emotionally/monetarily. I don’t think this is a bad thing; he just needs to remember that it would be her money and to act accordingly. And to be very careful with his heart, he needs to think about sex as just sex, don’t become involved, but for God’s sake, wear a freaking condom. He doesn’t need to hook up with another loser.


I did go to the doctor today and guess what? After getting the chest x-rays and blood work, there is nothing wrong with me. Huh? I knew this is what it was going to say, it always says I am in great health. So he says something about heartburn and I knew where he was going with that. My sister has reflux and it makes her cough, so of course, now I am going to be on reflux meds. AND he gave me an inhaler, even though I told him that I don’t have problems breathing. I feel like I have a popcorn kernel stuck in my throat, then I start to cough and it gets worse and worse as I start coughing harder and harder. These are two things we are going to “try” to see if they won’t help. We are slowly narrowing down the problem, or are we? Huh? The coughing just keeps getting harder and harder. I am taking a cocktail of meds at night now, including the sleeping pills, Robitussin, and Nyquil; the last two together to try to stop the coughing at night, but it only lasts a couple of hours, then I wake up and I am exhausted at work, I come home and about pass out. Blah. Tell your sister to back off-it must be nice to have perfect sleep. Tell her to put an alarm clock on, set for every hour and half, she has to get out of bed and wonder the house, preferably with a nail in her shoe giving her pain, then after 20 minutes, she can go back to bed. Then she won’t be able to go right back to sleep, but will have to get back up in 1 ½ hours again and start the process over. Ha! That would show her!

I tried to have Tata and I hang up lights, but she is really digging her heels in the ground about not wanting to do it. I tried the other night and then again today at noon. We have a ton of lights; I just want to try a little bit.

Tata is working Christmas so this should make for an interesting holiday. Someone is going to get bent out of shape, I can feel it coming.

The bonus was phenomenal, but the taxes chopped it in half and I mean in half. I was shocked! I was kinda expecting at least ¾ of it, but NO! Half! I feel like Eddie Murphy talking about marriage, HALF! Oh well, I will figure out another way to do what needs to be done.

Okay, nothing new here. Ttyl your BBB

I'M ALIVE.. SOMEWHAT..

Dear Carol,
Your Thanksgiving sounds like it could've done without the "drama queen."  Holy hell, what is her issue?  She's a good person at her core and I will forever believe that but these choices she is making and this attitude.. She really needs to get it in check.  She needs to see a therapist and work thru some of these things.  She had/has an excellent Mother and Grand-Mother, both amazing role models for independent women, not to mention her little sister getting out there and rolling her sleeves up getting in the game.  E.D. has done nothing from which she cannot bounce back, WE did it!  And were it not for those precious babies I would say "tough love" would be the route to take but you really can't do that when there's lit'l ones that need your love and tending to.  What a tuff spot for you to be in not only as a Mother but as Grandma..  I know Y.D. is watching and learning from all of this..

Kudos on your raise and bonus AND having the boss man actually come in and commend you on a job well done, you're right, that rarely happens.  I am so, so happy for you Carol... This has been a long time coming for you and no one deserves it more than YOU!

I'm very sorry that you're still sick.  Have you been to the doc?  Sounds like you have fluid in your lungs and that sounds like pneumonia!  You really, really need to be seen.  Please do so... I worry about you all the time!

Life here has been all about me getting used to these meds.  I swear to God I fall asleep at the drop of a hat, not good sleep mind you but sleep of sorts which is more than I was getting before so I am happy.  Now if I could sleep at normal times that would be great.  My lit'l sis is constantly harping on me about taking naps in the middle of the afternoon but I honestly don't have a choice.  My eyes just get heavy and I nod off.  I'm taking everything the way I'm supposed to except on the days when I have to pick Seth up and/or drop him off, then I can't have any of these meds in my system, impossible to drive! 

I took #1 son to do some paperwork for his new job.  He has absolutely got to hang onto this job Carol.  Check out the benefits he gets...

IMMEDIATE UPON HIRE -

• 40% discount on food/beverage
• 20% discount off merchandise at Boyne Country Sports
• Discounted golf privileges
• Discounted ski privileges
• Discounted water park privileges
• Tennis privileges
• Bike rentals
• Ski rental
• Discounted ski lessons
• Direct deposit
• 7 paid holidays at time and a half if worked
• Bereavement pay
• Marriage leave pay
• Referral bonuses
• Service recognition awards
• Company sponsored events

AT 90 DAYS -

• Medical, dental, vision, life, AFLAC and flex coverage at 90 days.
• Room discounts for self and family at 90 days

ONE YEAR -

• 401K after a yr.
• 30% discount on merchandise at Boyne Country Sports after a yr.
• Tuition reimbursement (full or part time students) after a yr.
• Paid vacation after a yr.

I think this is just awesome and what a great opportunity for him.  He can put "lit'l one" on his insurance so "the bitch" will stop bitching and come time for "lit'l one" to go to school, son #1 will have it totally together and "lit'l one" will go here instead of that bomb dump "the moron" lives in!

I've been feeling like a zombie and trying to function as such is near impossible.  I have no energy what-so-ever and yet I have decorating to get done.  I had son #3 bring some boxes up for me earlier... Thought I might just stay up and get done what I am able before I slip into my coma again.  My lit'l sis will dispute the fact that I'm up late at night and rather than being up I should just lie in bed until I fall asleep again.  I keep trying to tell her that it doesn't work that way but she refuses to listen.. She knows everything.. It's not my fault my body is off kilter right now.  I too would love nothing more than to go to bed at 10pm and wake up at 6am.  In fact that is my goal but right now it's not possible and it sucks and I don't need to hear about my irratical sleep patterns every single day from some one who hasn't the slightest clue about what it's like to live in excruciating pain day in, day out and to not be able to go to sleep like a normal person.  Does she seriously think I arrange my schedule to be like this???  I like not sleeping, I like being in pain???  I just hate it when people don't get it..

Anyway, I need to go.. I feel a coma coming on.  Please let me know when you're heading to the doc.
Luv U
BFF

whistle while you work?

Another day, another dollar, well, kinda. The vibe around work is odd lately. The vibe around the house is getting a wee bit better. I still haven’t managed to get the lights hung and when I told Tata about it, she said, let’s not do it, so I think that might be the plan.


I am hoping that everything comes together for Christmas. Some of the presents I ordered are on back order, go figure. And then these presents are for Nic of all kids.

Saturday, Tata and I have to go Christmas shopping for presents for the stockings held at work. I tried to get the whole parts house to participate, but the bitch was snide when she said no one on that side of the street would be interested. Yet when I talked to Tata and Kat, the parts driver, they jumped all over it and wanted to be included.

I am so lazy this year, I think because of the way I have been feeling. Lately it is getting worse again, it hurts so much to cough anymore. But I promised to help an organization get gifts for a program this weekend. I got some, but I didn’t get nearly what was expected. I just have been so blah, that’s a good word. I don’t have the energy to have the enthusiasm to get excited. Oh well.

Tomorrow I will get to see the next paycheck where I have a bonus and raise. I already know approximately how much, but I kind of am excited to actually see what it is. I need to get stuff paid and get ready for the next couple of weeks. Then in two weeks I have to have enough food to feed an army, they do a feed the face kind of things for about 14 days. Everyone who works in the office brings stuff on a day appointed to you. There is no getting out of it, otherwise, I probably would.

My boss was pretty cool today. When he came in to tell me about what to expect on the pay check, he also said a big thank you for helping him with all the extra stuff I have been doing; going to WA, taking over some other duties that I didn’t have before, just letting him know how things kinda work. It was nice to have a thank you, cuz those are very hard to come by at work nowadays.

Oh well, ttyl

Your BBB