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I could go on and on about how crappy I feel, but what’s the point. Nothing has changed, so we will get out of the way. Work, too, is same old, same old. I am not happy that summer is here, because it just shows me how much I can’t do on my own. Pisses me off, but I have to say thank goodness for daughter #1, she has been a great helper. It was funny one day how she said she didn’t know what she would do without me, hahaha.


I was just a hair upset on mother’s day when I found out later in the afternoon, that daughter #3 was at the ex’s parent’s house. IT WAS MOTHER’S DAY FOR GOD’S SAKES! She didn't tell me she was going up there, she called once early in the  morning and left a message on the phone for me, but that was it.Oh but I was livid. I actually confronted her today in regards to it. She told me she was upset about something else and I jumped her, telling her that what she did, by being with the ex's family,  was paramount to me spending the day with the ex-boy toy she hated so much, on her birthday. She shut her mouth and didn’t say another word. Oh how the ex must have been gloating that she was there and not with me.

And then to kind of top it all, she drops off that dog that was so sick on Friday, she hasn’t been back to see it or take care of it. I have had to clean up diarrhea and vomit all over my house. It's not like I can bend over to clean up that great. Since the vet, though, he has gotten better, but that was a good couple of hundred out of my wallet. Now, #1 daughter has been over lots, especially when I am at work, to let him out, she helped take him to the vet, she has been there. Her boys love the dog, but he is a good dog, he actually talks to you too.

Sleep is almost nonexistent now. It’s getting harder and harder to sleep. And I am soooo dreading the hot weather that will be here coming this weekend. I have never been able to take naps during the day, now I can fall asleep at work during lunch, fairly easy. I even just gave in and took one of the many pillows my dad had here, to work.

The move will be here faster than I am ready for it. I am so not ready to get all that shit up here. I don’t want most of it, so I will really have to go thru the stuff.

Here’s a funny one, my mother showed up on mother’s day to help weed my yard, because I couldn’t do it. I was crying trying to pull weeds, I can’t get on the ground, I can’t bend over, I can’t squat, it sucks!!!

Well, enough whining from the fat chick…gonna go.

Your BBF