ALL NIGHTER

**Obviously something I started and never finished back in Dec. so enjoy the read I guess..** (Where the fuck is my head???)

Dear Carol,
I haven't been to bed yet, have no plans to go.  Didn't take my meds specifically for this reason, knew I'd be up all night tonight.  Got a little behind on the Christmas decorations.. I have boys that must be supervised otherwise nothing gets done, or at least done as I ask for it to be done, half assed, haphazzardly, totally opposite of what I've asked, yes, but not done as I ask and then of course they all get pissed when I ask, ask mind you, for them to do it as I had initially asked.. I tell them I appreciate their efforts, it's not like I'm a raving bitch about it, at least not the first four times I ask and vow my undying love, devotion and appreciation for all they have done.. Anyway, still decorating...  Then I've got to gather everything else - all the boxes n' stuff that need to go down in the basement - and pu them by the basement door and then leave a note to remind one of them - #2 son has volunteered - to actually put the stuff down in the basement because trust me, it will get shuffled all over the kitchen, until I get pissed enough and open the basement door myself and just throw it down, because apparently that's the kind of bitch I am.  They always say that I always yell at them, I say, it's the only time you do what I ask.  I ask and ask and ask, finally I'm at my wits end, raise my voice and they all get pissed and I'm the bad guy.  I just don't get it.

Ugh - My least favorite Christmas song EVER is now playing... Feliz Navidad... CANNOT STAND THAT SONG.. And coming in a close second is Grandma Got Run Over By A Reindeer...

Got the tree almost done.. I'll be fiddling with that thru next year!  Small table - done - all snowmen, one silver Christmas tree, lights and a candle.  Still working on the china hutch and dining room.  The mantle is finished.  All outside lights are done.  Son #2 doesn't like that they're all white lights, nor than I have a GIANT star on the house, 2 small stars in the windows and one of those swirly front yard light trees with a little star on top of that.  He also doesn't like that my tree in total contrast has colored lights.. He said the white lights should've been on the tree since my theme was snowmen, blue, white and silver... The colored lights should be outside for everyone else to see.  I told him, when he gets his own house he is more than welcome to decorate however he chooses.. In my house I decorate for Seth, period.  Seth likes to see the stars outside and all the pretty lights inside.  I have to hang a couple of wreaths out in the sunroom and one in the foyer - sounds so grand.. it's the little room off of the sunroom with stairs leading up to the boys domain.

Made a fresh pot of coffee, tastes so yummy..  Thinking about going out and getting "lit'l one's" Mom a Christmas present.. I so don't want to spend one penny on her.. Okay, I won't.  Issue resolved.  If only they were all so easy.

Need to get the rest of my Christmas cards made out this morning too otherwise everyone's will be late.. I hate doing that and yet it seems every year I do.. Stupid..